All my names are coined from things people called me in the past/present. Zeroº came first when all through elementary school I was called a nothing, a nobody and a Zero. It came up again close to a year after 5th grade while playing Mortal Kombat. I used Sub Zero a lot so they called me Sub Zero. I started rapping a little before that and I never had a real name… So I used Zeroº. From this day forward I used negatives to make me positive. After being played in relationships that all I had to show for was gifts and pats on my back for “good” bed skills; I used the name iWhore. That’s how I felt. Like a whore. I was giving my heart and all they appreciated was my dick… So they got me shit and let me stay with them… What you call that? People don’t phase me anymore… They’re just repeats and reminders of how this planet is an experimental carbon based comedy stage. I’m glad to be a Zeroº… especially if the opposite is to be like you.
I want to tear a hole in yo bitch soul It’ll make me feel better about being an asshole Has been I know stop asking about me The hip hop game has been doing fine without me I’m not lying you been snapping and dancing to everything Lying ass niggas like Rick False and lil Wayne Giving you the most while turning art into a ghost Easier to take a roast than to fucking make a toast You’re a BITCH broke ignorant toddler choosing horribly Relationships battle war stories ho why you think I was whoring? Eased the pain with dollars no blue collars on me Amazing what a nigga can make when performing on a Sealy Condoms to the ceiling uniform for a sad life don’t laugh dude I might be getting used by yo lonely wife For a simple few shillings that will make me look cute for the next one It’s a cold world out here but no fear protect yo neck son! I’m not on one… I’m just on me… Never be your worse enemy… Suicide like me.
I’ve been facing different issues lately and one of them was another female that just has no business saying they want ANYTHING. I say that because we have too many females asking for shit that they never want or going to give. I was dealing with this girl that I’ve liked since like 95/96 and everything was cool and all of the sudden 4 days after I put myself back on the market (meaning I wasn’t forcing any type of relationship with her) she cut communications with me… I prayed about it and GOD told me to stick it out and just wait before I kill all contact but I’ve lost patience for humanity… Sorry. I have. So after that (which took place April) the relationship I had with GOD was on some silent treatment ish. I’ve finally reached out the other day to speak to GOD and found out that GOD feels that I still need to talk to the female in question… I still don’t want to do it. It’s not that I don’t trust His judgement it’s that I don’t trust humanity. I don’t feel that me reaching out to her is going to make anything better really. -shrugs- I rather disobey for something small and be happy and do all the big things right.
Tonight while I was sleeping I had a nightmare where Rihanna and I were dating and she had a guy friend that I knew from around the way but he knew my whole history. Nigga had money and status and all but I still didn’t kiss his ass like other people did. Well he was having some big thing and she and I showed up for support and he called himself exposing me. The things said weren’t even remotely true but she believed every word. Then I find out he had been trying to take her from me so I just got in my car and was trying to leave. At that moment I see him kicking her out of his life because he had done what he set out to do. Take something from a guy he envied. As I’m pulling away she ran to my car apologizing… I hit a speed dial number and handed her the phone. It was her father… I drove off after that.
The thing about the dream is that I usually get my answers about unknown things around me in my dreams. Someone in my area that I went to school with is salting my name with females I openly speak to on FB. A lot of my classmates have stopped speaking to me over the years and I never questioned it but with the girl in question and another classmate it was quite obvious. Like for real nigga? You gonna TMZ me with MTO info? People wonder why and how I act the way I do. People wonder why I’m so pro death. People wonder why I gave 3 years to make sure I didn’t see that shit happening to me. The answer is… Fuck humanity. It’s so far overdo that this planet is wipe clean of the parasitic beings that inhabit it. I hope I can see most of you parish quite frankly. See you in my nightmares. -wink-